Crushes~

Crushes are definitely weird.

I have had and will have a lot of crushes, but yet again, everyone will.

I have two especially weird crushes at the moment. The reason behind them being weird is the fact that I only talk to them on the public transport.

One of them, male, is older than me, I estimate him being about 15 (I’m 16). He’s really funny and he’s cute.

The second, female, is also older than me. She’s 21; I’m her friend. She studies Uni and is pretty cute.

 

But today I went to take a delivery to my first crush’s house and I found out he has a girlfriend, and he even has a kid.

That made me sad, but I knew I had no chance with him.

But, in the end: I still have a chance with the girl?

Lmao, I’m super dumb.

Insignificance in Life~

So, do you guys just have that one day where you feel useless? Maybe more than one day, lol, but that’s what today’s topic is: Just feeling useless.

I often times get told that my arguments/statements in conversation aren’t really that supportive to said argument/talk/etc., and that really makes me have a hard time during exposition and presentations because I just feel like what I’m saying isn’t that important to others as it may be to me.

For example: Today in theater we were doing some improv. and I was mostly a secondary/supporting character helping the lead actress in a couple of scenes, but when ever my character wanted to express something, it was mostly blocked out by the leads, which made me feel my character really didn’t do much in the improv. And although I know it wasn’t intentional, they’re right; When I sat down and started recapitulating what I said and my actions, I made my character “insignificant”, and I really do think this can apply to anyone and everyone’s life in moments like mine where we just feel insignificant!

We make ourselves insignificant, and, in the same manner, it’s us who can and must make ourselves visible and known.